my wallet

for the 2nd time in 3 weeks i've officially lost my wallet.

I'm really not trying to make this blog 'depressing' but i honestly have just had some bad luck lately. It's all a bummer on many levels. BUT...that's it..it's just a bummer and i get that.

With these little dumb things happening right now like girl trouble, losing a wallet, even some health issues...its still not all anything horrible. My life rules man and i'm an EXTREMELY lucky person. I just wish i could tell myself that more and get over this bump in the road lately.

Last weekend i finally saw The Diving Bell in The Butterfly. For a while i was trying to get someone to go with me because i knew it would be special movie and then afterwards we could discuss our thoughts. After about 3 people not being avail i decided to just hit it on my own which i've done a lot lately. There is someting about going on your own to a movie that's great and calming. So anyway, It's a really really beautiful film. It's definitely depressing but in the end i had this huge smile, i guess cause i realized how lucky I am. So it's about this french dude..former Elle Magazine Editor, on top of the world..loving life and then all of a sudden he has this stroke. He's in a coma for a few weeks and eventually comes out but has an extremely rare condition called Lockdown Syndrome (i believe that's what it's called.) So he wakes and realizes he has no control over his body...or vocal cords. The only thing he can do is BLINK ONE FUCKING EYE. He eventually figures out way to communicate with just ONE BLINKING EYE. No words...no motions..just blinking with that one eye. But you know what? Through this one eye he realizes how beautiful life is and eventually writes in an entire novel which the movie is based on just through that eye. Amazing stuff.

So as i'm sitting here being 'bummed out' by this girl (and many of them before her), losing my wallet once again, i realize just how truly lucky i am.

I was supposed to go to BSE tonight but i can't now cause of the no wallet and it sucks. I'm beginning to really enjoy the company of my roomates friends and i really do look forward to these dinner club nights. So now i'll drink a glass of wine, eat some frozen trader joes something...and try to put this day behind me.