Blue Night! Blue Night!

There is something great about seeing "Medieval Times Dinner" show up on your bank account statement.

Lost Returns

Tonight i went to my friend Jillian's house to watch LOST premiere. It was a good time and i think Jillian will be doing the LOST screenings every Thursday now at her house.

So here's my plan for the next few months:

Monday: Yoga
Tuesday: Margarita Tuesdays
Wed: Yoga
Thurs: LOST
Friday Margaritas?
Sat: Boxing
Sunday: Free

We'll see if that sticks but this could be the path to happiness...right?

Also i emailed this girl at of the blue tonight. We'll see what happens.

I can feel it coming soon...something is coming!!!!!!

down goes another one..

i've officially given up on another one. She was cute too...too bad.

It's rained the last 5 days or so and it's awesome. love it so much. I think its supposed to rain some tomorrow and then we are done. At least it will clean all the shit out of the LA air and the skies will be amazing over the next week.

I'm trying to find a boxing gym to and learn how to box. I REALLY want to do this and i'm sure it will be incredibly hard...but it's my next 'goal.' I'll keep you posted if this latest hobby really does happen.

Its getting tough for me to blog..i'm not going to lie.

another week..

and another week.

Tonight i put together a group of friends, most of whom did not know each other, to get pizza. We had a fun time. For some reason, something is still missing. i keep waiting for this 'thing' to happen. I dont know what it is still and i might never know i realize now. So am i supposed to give up and just move on? I have no idea still. Every year in LA has been so strange...waiting for something thats never coming it seems. So tomorrow i'll probably wake up once again at 9 to go do something that i HAVE to do even though i know deep inside it wont help anything. i wish i just had a morning where i could sleep till 11 and be content staying home all morning..and then day. Will anyone i meet be able to put up with this anxiety?

Margarita Tuesdays

well..i just erased a phone number from my contacts. i'm feeling pretty good about it actually.

Marissa, John, Grant, Brad and I just went to El Compadre. Fun times.

Today heath leadger was found in his hotel room. It actually made me quite sad. I remember seeing him at Spaceland once at a show and he seemed like a nice person.

I REALLY need to take come control of my life very soon. Nothing is out of control by any means, but i just need to become a lot more mature sooner rather than later. No more doing dumb shit that i know is dumb while doing it. I need to stop biting my nails. I need to read a fucking book. I need to decide if i should be moving to SF NOW cause i'm sick of month by month going by and being in the same, sad, depressing state.

Its funny, i really think a new bed spread or a new piece of art is going to make me happy while at the same time i truly know its not. I read someones blog earlier that said "maybe all this bad luck is the sign of something good coming." If that's the case than i might be winning the lottery soon.

MLK Day

No work today so i took an early trip to ikea. I'm trying to make my room a little more comfy. Slowly getting there! This afternoon i went to see Cloverfield which makes that about 10 movies in a row by myself. It was good. Not as great as i wanted to be but definitely a cool movie.

Wow, this blog entry is really fucking boring so far.

Went i went to San Diego the other day i met a friend of Sam's named Beth Ann. She was recently engaged to this guy i met there as well. Both very nice people so i asked them.."how did you guys meet?" Turns out he was waiting on her at cheesecake factory and she asked for his number. I'm a big believer in fate and you just happening to run into 'that' person. So, i'll continue to wait...i know it will come...i just wish it sped the fuck up!

I need to start a new hobby...specifically something to get in shape. i think i'm finally going to take that boxing class.

Oh, the dried apple things at trader joes are the bomb...just saying.

San Diego

So just got back from San Diego. I went with Sam, Crystal and Sam's sister Pernell to the Ryan Adams show.

Overall great show. We got hooked up with BOX seats from my good friend Pete so that was definitely pretty cool. Every time i see Ryan play i love him even more. It's sad not more people 'get' this guy. The talent...it's just insane. I'm thinking about going tomorrow night to see him once again in Santa Barbara. Laurence invited me to tag along. We'll see.

Let It Ride..

So i'm getting pretty good at cooking eggs. just wanted to let you know that.

This morning i went to this new coffee place called LA Mill Coffee in Silverlake. It's one of these new places where they like press gold from the actually coffee or some BS and charge you and extra dollar because its some crazy process. I'm trying to decide if i even like all this fancy coffee lately. I keep saying "wow..this IS better..!" but the more i think about it..the more i realize i think i'm just a fan of the normal shit from starbucks or khaldi.

While in line I was behind this incredibly cute girl. I recognized her from Gingergrass..i think she is the same cute girl that works there that i obnoxiously stare at each time i'm there. I overheard her talking to the employee at LA mill asking what coffee is just 'plain ole coffee' and i found it hilarious. Thing is this place has this insane coffee menu and if you are not some coffee aficionado it IS very confusing. So i started chatting with her about how funny these new coffee places are that are popping up everywhere on the east side. She was very nice and her name was jessica. maybe one day i'll run into her again..that would be nice.

Only 4 hours till on my way to SD to see Ryan play. i think its going to rule. stay tuned...

These girls are better off in my head...

Tomorrow i'm going to San Diego to see Ryan Adams with two great friends. Two truly GOOD people who i'm happy to have in my life.

Really excited to see Ryan play once again. Never know what you are going to get from him..at least in between songs...but i can tell you the music is NEVER a let down.

I need to get of town and forget about these little things that dont matter in the big picture.

the next stage

this is my 3rd blog post in 1 day. Its the first day of my blog though so i'm guessing that's about right. Give me a few more days i'm sure i'll have trouble doing just 1 post.

I feel its almost time to move on. I've felt this way for sometime and i need to make it happen soon before its too late and i say 'what if?' Will it be a city in Northern Ca or a city that prides itself in 'being weird'?

Something is keeping me here though...i dont know what it is yet.

my wallet

for the 2nd time in 3 weeks i've officially lost my wallet.

I'm really not trying to make this blog 'depressing' but i honestly have just had some bad luck lately. It's all a bummer on many levels. BUT...that's it..it's just a bummer and i get that.

With these little dumb things happening right now like girl trouble, losing a wallet, even some health issues...its still not all anything horrible. My life rules man and i'm an EXTREMELY lucky person. I just wish i could tell myself that more and get over this bump in the road lately.

Last weekend i finally saw The Diving Bell in The Butterfly. For a while i was trying to get someone to go with me because i knew it would be special movie and then afterwards we could discuss our thoughts. After about 3 people not being avail i decided to just hit it on my own which i've done a lot lately. There is someting about going on your own to a movie that's great and calming. So anyway, It's a really really beautiful film. It's definitely depressing but in the end i had this huge smile, i guess cause i realized how lucky I am. So it's about this french dude..former Elle Magazine Editor, on top of the world..loving life and then all of a sudden he has this stroke. He's in a coma for a few weeks and eventually comes out but has an extremely rare condition called Lockdown Syndrome (i believe that's what it's called.) So he wakes and realizes he has no control over his body...or vocal cords. The only thing he can do is BLINK ONE FUCKING EYE. He eventually figures out way to communicate with just ONE BLINKING EYE. No words...no motions..just blinking with that one eye. But you know what? Through this one eye he realizes how beautiful life is and eventually writes in an entire novel which the movie is based on just through that eye. Amazing stuff.

So as i'm sitting here being 'bummed out' by this girl (and many of them before her), losing my wallet once again, i realize just how truly lucky i am.

I was supposed to go to BSE tonight but i can't now cause of the no wallet and it sucks. I'm beginning to really enjoy the company of my roomates friends and i really do look forward to these dinner club nights. So now i'll drink a glass of wine, eat some frozen trader joes something...and try to put this day behind me.

My first post

I've never really had my own blog. My friends and I have a dumb yet fun blog called "Not A Joke of The Day." It's a blog where we talk about things that are no jokes, hence the name. Like "man, this ice cream is no joke!" Obviously it gets a little more creative than that though. We think it's the greatest thing ever, but just us..of course.

I never had my own blog though, frankly cause i felt there was not much to say, especially if no one else was seeing it (or at least no one planning on seeing it at first.) Lately however i've had a ton on my mind and I need to get out somewhere. So in other words, I guess its my new therapy. I hate to write words down on paper, i know many prefer it, but i just never have..even prior to computers, etc. First and foremost i absolutely HATE my handwriting. It's held me back from a few things that I'm not happy with. Like writing a letter to a loved one, or sending a 'thank you' note. I've done it before of course...but its rare these days, and that bothers me.

Today i had a girl i was quite fond of cancel dinner plans with me. The best way i can describe the way i feel is 'dissapointment.' I've gone out with a good amount of ladies recently and all have them have sucked. Just your classic idiots..nothing much to talk about..only care about themselves, etc. This girl i thought was different and I still believe she is, but something is holding her back from hanging with me again. The first night we went out was amazing (i thought at least.) There is just a feeling you get when something special is there..and i have not felt that in a while prior to that night with her. She said she was just 'too busy' to go out to dinner tonight' but i'm not dumb. Some people say to me "Well maybe she is busy and you are just overanalyzing?' Which i do of course. I know in this case i'm not though. If you like someone you make time for them..especially if its just for dinner...and especially if she hangs out all the other nights of the week but not just the one night she was supposed to hang with you.

in the end this is all me though...if she does not want to hang she does not want to hang. No point in me freaking. She probably just wanted to be friends anyway and thats fine. I'm just dissapointed in people lately. I keep thinking its LA girls...but i just dont know. I must be throwing some weird vibe off. I'm trying to figure out what that is.

One day i'll look back on this first post..if i even keep blogging..and i'll think to myself "man, was that depressing."